..And Living By Faith

…..If you plan on reading much of this material, you should know that up front!

I have begun to blog a few different times in the past but have always found myself eventually deleting my posts and canceling my subscriptions and putting it away "for good". I would begin and feel I was doing well, but then I would hurt someone's feelings, or have an altercation over a business matter that didn't end well, or start a fight with my husband. I would feel unworthy to continue. 

But here I am again.

I think it’s just a huge case of imposter syndrome. And why not? Anyone who blogs about living life--and about how to live one's best life with the help of Jesus should be a very Christ-like, well-balanced, mature person. I am those things....some of the time. 

Anyone witnessing my behavior at other times would wonder if I was trying to wreck my life on purpose. My intention is always good (mostly) but I lose my patience with people and situations (regularly). If everyone would just see things the way I do, and then do what I tell them to--well, things would be perfect! (insert an eye roll from my husband) 

Having explained this, I want you to know that what I am offering up in my blogging is my attempt to figure things out. I have found great value over the years in journaling. Writing down what has happened in my life, and what I feel about it, and what I might do to improve has been very helpful. Writing down the ideas that stand out to me as I read the scriptures has become essential. God has used those moments of trying to focus on and capture the meaning in His words. I have learned what is true, understood new ideas, and received guidance about how to live.

In the Doctrine & Covenants section 33 verse 1 it says this, "...open ye your ears and hearken to the voice of the Lord your God, whose word is quick and powerful, sharper than a two-edged sword, to the dividing asunder of the joints and marrow, soul and spirit; and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart." God knows the thoughts and intents in my heart, so that means I live before Him. I am trying to hear His voice each day but many times I get in my own way. 

This blog is my attempt to share what I am learning as I try to tune into heaven. My hope is that by reading about my path of discipleship (that looks more like a zig-zag than a straight line) that it will inspire you to begin, or continue, on your own path to Christ.